Absent to a imporant party~

22/08/2009.......

You know what date is this???

Is my friends birthday party~

oh....I did't attend to the party...

becuase of the fever.....

and my dad said is dangerous of attend to a party.....

is because of the H1N1...

I wanted to go there to spent a day with mt friends before...

but, it's hopeless right now~

it's expired now and i feel so down...

I missed a fun party like that... what a waste!!~~

my classmate must be have alots of fun on that day....ToT

I promise to my friends"DODORO" to attend to his birthday party~

and I didn't celebrate to him with my classmate too...

I feel so sorry to him~

So... I wanted to apoligize to him on my blog~

I wish he will feel happy about it~ and....

~HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DODORO~

wish you have a sweet 18~

DAMN two weeks...

I got sick since the beginning of August.

I have a high fever on those two weeks.

feels like that something is burning in my own body.

Although, i also have a flu too...

After that... my dad thougt i maybe have the virus that call "H1N1".

Then my parents were very nervous in this damn two weeks...

I 'visit' the doctor five almost four times in one week.

At the last, doctor told me have to wait the result of my sickness.

then must be a good girl to stay in my room for two weeks....

After this, I stayed in my room...i mean "jail"...

when my parents wanted to came in my room, they always wears the mask on their face...

they seen me like a...monster, a dangerous virus or something that horrible creature....whatever it is...

well...the important thing is...I can feel a family love~

they won't scare of me...and take care of me too~

ofcourse~i'm happy with it~

The poor thing is...it must be so many homework to do...

GOD...wish me luck!!!

Please don't go...

This is the last gift that he gave for me before he went back to the stupid camp...

Sometimes I hate myself for talk to him, like i always don't feel good to him in my heart...

I don't know how much i like him anymore...

In these time, his always use the loud voice to talk to me...

i know he was angry for the loud noise.

but i hate it...

in this afternoon,

he told me to leave away from him...

But.........WHY?

I did not do anything wrong to him....

I always choose to trust him...

he said me i'm in love with other guys...

he said me i don't love him anymore...

What are these nonsence foolish WORDS?

We have a important promises with each other...

You promise me YOU will be my only man in my whole life....

I was very happy and exited to you in this time....

Did you know the feelings in my heart??

Why am i crying for??

Is all just because of you...big dummy...

I said I will wait for you to come home...

Don' you forget this is our promise...

I will love you and take good care of you ever and ever.....

SO please........................................................................................

Don't said leave you to me...

A different feeling of lonely...

I'M have been seventeen after June 23rd.

Yeah~ It is hard to live in those times...but I like my seventeen lifes.

I can see a lots of things that i have never knew before~

The important things that i can see...

Is "What are the real friends for."

The sad things is...my boyfriend can't celebrate with me of my seventeen birthday...

It's true that I can't bealive that he can't stay by my side in this lately months...

He will be going to a camp like PLKM... he told me he didn't want to go...

But some of the reason... HE MUST...

IS just a two months, I know is just a short moments...

But I just can't stand it for this two months... cause...

I'm very worried about him...

I know that I have to let him to learn about how to face this difficult society in the future...

of course it is good for my own too...

so I can't think more and less.

I miss him so much than before...

我真的真的很愛 ﹐三八老婆﹐真的真的很愛你﹐整樣吵架都好我們都還是在一起解決事情﹐弄清楚事情。。。。老婆有什麼是就說出來不爽的說出來﹐我們都說過了不管開心不開心都要分享出來﹐不要因為怕我不開心。。。老婆要說出來阿 。。

我不断地犹豫。。。

他的确是明显地 疼爱 我。。。

可是不知道为何都想不到正真的原因与答案。

我曾经尝试过 忘掉所有的一切 ，然后专心去疼回他。

可是当每次行动的过程中，都会出现 挫败 。

我们俩就是会因为某些事情而 误会 了对方，而我就只是当 沉默 的一方。

虽然我会在事后慎重地 反省自己 的过错，可是我们的误会依然连续地发生。

如果可以的话，我希望我能够把我心中不爽·不开心的一切都说给他听。。。

我。。。没那个勇气。。。

因为我最恐惧的就是，他不开心的心情。。。